C . I . N . T . A

for most people, they will easily find the definition of love... but for some of us we find it difficult.. not just difficult to define it but to find, to feel, to speak about it, to tell someone about it, to really know the existence of love... love?? is it just emotion? why bother saying those word when we don't ever feel it??? just stop being mean to yourself and to the people around you... stop giving hope for those who really want to find love... if love is just a rhythm that you always sing to every person you've met, you just have to stop singing... people will misunderstand a lot from the word  love.. speaking of love.. i don't even know whether i am able to love or be love by someone else after this.. maybe the word love has become a catastrophic event in my life.. i blame myself for being mean to my own body.. i was the one who's responsible for everything that has happen to me.. the only think that i can do right know is to forget everything.. never do it again.. just pray a lot so things will get better, so the love was really true..

The Creator of the heavens and the earth. He hath made for you pairs of yourselves, and of the cattle also pairs, whereby He multiplieth you. Naught is as His likeness; and He is the Hearer, the Seer. ––42: Ash–Shura: 11

footnote: yesterday he talks about the future which does not include me at all.. i was badly hurt.. but i keep on smiling even though my eyes start to sore and the tears just won't stop from falling.