HAVE U EVER?? i LOVE this song so much...

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

i miss you....

i miss u because....
when something really good happened,
you're the one i want to share with


i miss u because..
when something troubles me,
you're the one who understands me well


i miss u because..
when i laugh and when i cry,
you're the one who makes the laugh grows and the tears disappear..


and for all reason.. i will always miss u and love u so much...

aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!! TOOO TIRED!!!

it's been a while that i did not write anything in my blog.. all the happy2 faces is all gone.. hmm.. got so confused with my feelings lately... it's just too difficult to get out of it nor that i want to leave it just like that...

whatever it is, but i am definitely tired of playing with all of this.. tired of hiding and lying... tired of worrying someone else will get hurt but at the same time i got myself hurt... it's so painful and it feels like i want to blow up.. i am toooooo tired to hurt other and get hurt by other... i just want to be happy... like i used to be... i like to smile and laugh.. i am too tired of faking smiles, i'm too tired to always think positive.. too tired of making jokes to entertain other... but none of them repays me back by making me happy.. why must i be the one to suffer most of the time? can u see it??
by time.. bit by bit things change.. it does not taste sweet like before nor it taste bitter, it's just tasteless.. u have change?? or maybe i've change.. do u feel the same?? or maybe it was just me? i really miss the way it was long time ago..
maybe i should give myself some time to think about this all over again.. maybe i'm expecting too much..
i wonder how long will i able to hold on like this.. maybe i'm just too tired of being me..=(

was it awkward or awesome???

it has been a long time that i went out shopping alone.. today!! i am able to do so... why??? just want to get back the mood of the old me... guess what?? i also went to cinema alone.. watching harry potter... ALONE!!!! hahaha...
when i buy the ticket, the counter lady asked me several times on how many ticket i want to buy.. i said one.. she asked me again.. then asked me again.. hihi..
u know what.. i think things have changed...  when i was in my second year of medical school, i used to hang out alone.. i enjoy myself most of the time.. however, today i really wish i have someone to accompany me... come!! be my friend.. let's hang out together... <3

i juz lOve it!! =)

akhirnya tercapai jugak hasrat nk p jln2 kat satu tempat ni... da byk kali sebut nk p.. tp ade je yg jd sebab xdpt nk p... ble smpai sne punye la syok.. smpai lenguh kaki berjalan.. haha.. byk kali pit stop sobab ponek!!!! kaki pun longuh... mne xnye.. aku p pki high heel 4 inch..  pdn la muka kan?? tempat tu plak byk no cerun2 nye.. ngan high heel aku tu.. rse mcm nk cmpak je tepi.. jln bare foot.. tp xley gak.. sbb tmpat tu byk feces.. tau x feces tu ape?? feces tu taik la!! haha..

cak!!!

walaupun ko kecik.. tp ko still comel.

ikan koi yg xmontel..=( xckup mkn kot..

mcm rpe pesawat perang... yeke??? ske ati je..

nk mandi air terjun tu!!

butterfly on my cheek feels like 'cutenye sy!!' hehe

there it goes again...

bird oo bird.. jgn patuk tgn sy ye!

si burung yg botak!!

skenye cik merak yg kembang!!

bestnye dpt p ctu... walaupun skit2 kaki.. tp puas sgt... tq pak supir n pak foto... syg kat pak supir and pak foto!! =)

aku rindu sgt!!!!

korang mesti pnh tgok cter mya zara kan.. ala yang eja berlakon tu... masa tu eja comel sgt.. =) masa tayang cter tu aku kat matric.. penuh bilik tv ngan dak blok aku tiap ari khamis mlm.. semata-mata nk tgok cter tu... rndu la nk sme2 ngan kengkawan matric lg...

dlm cter tu aku ske lagu amy.. kasihku sinar.. jd soundtrack tuk drama tu.. aku da letak lagu tu kat bwh lirik ni... klo korang pun ske.. ley la sme2 dgr... hehehe.. tp sori.. video kat utube xcomey.. xmau letak.. aku letak lgu je..

Melangkah mengharapkan
Hadir dirimu
Ku genggam segala memori

Kita dewasa bersama
Menuju satu cita
Walau jalan berbeza

Kasihku sinar tanpa cinta
Sinarnya tanpa asmara
Dengarilah hatiku rindu

Kasihku mekar tak berbunga
Mekarnya di dalam jiwa
Biarkanlah, biarkan saja
Kasihku sinar

Andai kau ada disini
Terukirlah senyuman
Tersingkir rasa sepi

Andai kau pergi dari sisi

Jangan disingkir

Diriku dari mimpimu

WHY oH WHY DID I????

why did i merely MISPLACED all my important things?? tried so hard to find them back... most of them lost.. i can no longer see them.. =( sometimes i got really stressed out as i keep on thinking where did i put those thing or when did i last saw them??


why did  i LOST INTEREST to things i love to do before??? maybe i've been hold on to it too long.. but the thing is i must do it no matter i enjoy it or not... why did i lost my confidence?? i think i've done the same thing for the past 5 years.. by right i should be more confidence by now.. but why did i lost it?? totally can not understand why...


why did i STRUGGLE myself to PUT DOWN MORE WEIGHT when i've already lost 10kg for the past 1 year? my mom said i'm gorgeous the way i am now but i keep on saying that i'm not there yet... i seem to enjoy looking at my weight decrement.. =) plus i think i got jealous looking someone had no difficulty in choosing their cloth as most of the time, cute cloth always come in small size.. eventhough the cutting said L or XL, it was still made for those small small people.. huhu (i still had problem though!! =( but not as difficult as before =) ) 


why did i eat less food these days.. i do feel hungry but i just can not eat much.. i easily achieve satiety.. but i did not lose WEIGHT!!!! huhuhu... 

KL ni cntik la jugak!! =)

duk kl da dekat 5 thun.. tp byk je tempat menarik kat kl ni xp lg... huhuhu.. nk kte bz sgt xla jugak.. tp mcm xde geng nk p.. nk p naik pe pun xtau... huhuhu.. tempat2 yg teringin sgt nk p before tgglkan kl ni...


1. tempat ni nmenye BUTTERFLY PARK...

cantik kan??? kat butterfly park ni bukan ade butterfly je... ade haiwan lain jugak... selain p ctu... ley p tempat lain gak.. dekat2 je ngan butterfly park tu.. xcye tgok map ni... =)

alamak kecik la plak gmbar ni... xpe.. korg click je kat gmba ni.. ley tgok yg besar nye...

kat ctu ade bird park, orchid park, deer park.. mcm2 lg la... huhuhu.. best x korang??? ade x rse nk p?? klo nk p, JGN LPE AJK SY TAU!!!.. huhuhuhu

BIRD PARK

ORCHID PARK

DEER PARK

2. nk p BUKIT BROGA... yg ni kat semenyih.. jeles tgok kwn2 p tempat ni.. mcm cun sgt la... huhu... nk p.... insyaAllah klo xde pape hal.. nk p mse deepavali nnt... ade spe2 nk ikut????

huhuhu.. klo p tempat mcm ni rse tenang je kan... tol x?? ape?? nk kte org brutal la tu.. sy ni nmpk je brutal.. tp dlm hati ade taman tau... hahaha

3.  lg.. nk p mne ek??? next.. MINES WONDERLAND... tp nk masuk cni mhl la... huhuhu

nah.. map klo dlam mines ni...

A	=	Entrance		K	=	Koi Pond
B	=	Unity Fountain		L	=	Vintage Car
C	=	White Kingdom		M	=	Roller Coaster
D	=	Unity Train		N	=	Zheng He Treasure Ship Lantern
E	=	Secret of Tiger		O	=	Temple of Heaven
F	=	Garden Boat		P	=	Coin Garden
G	=	Mini Golf		Q	=	Amphitheatre Performances/ Musical Fountain
H	=	Inflatable Wonderland		R	=	Giant Dragon Sculptures
I	=	Road Tram		S	=	Water Taxi
J	=	Ice Factory		T	=	Light Fantasy on Water

4. PUTRAJAYA.. sbnrnye da byk kali tempuh tempat ni.. tp xpnah explore btol2.. cntik sgt view die... huhu

5. takut gak nk p tempat ni... boley ke??? tp rse mcm best plak... blaja psl culture agama lain kan.. BATU CAVES...

6. dlu klo nk ajk p klcc mmg ler mls.. bkn ape.. mhl bebenor brg2 kat sne... tp skrg da ade AQUARIA.. ley tgok byk ikan2.. cntik wooo... huhuhu

7. last station... klo p cni ley je nk tmpang umah member.. kan ramai kwn2 kat uitm shah alam tu... dekat bebenor tempat ni ngan ctu... I-CITY... tp.. mcm mne ek?? huhu

mmg btol la byk je tempat area2 kl yg xjejak lg... jom la!!! spe nk p???? bwk la sy skali... lalallalala =)

bestnye jln2...=)

nk tau x ape aku ske buat... aku ske merayap... hahahaha... pastu snap2 pic... yg jadi mgsa mstila org yg jln ngan aku tu... kne tlg snapkan pic aku... hehehe..tp.. pe slhnye kan klo it turns out pic tu mcm ni jd nye...

sy ske la sgt...

entah ape la yg aku kutip tu... plis ignore date tu.. camera ni sengal ckit.. hahaha

muahahahaha... nmpk la sepet mte aku tu... tp pic ni sy ske la... mcm pki cam dslr plak..=)

nk terbang boley x??? hihi 

asyik amik gambar sdri je... nk cover la ni.. amik gmba coral plak..

xley pndang cam sbb silau yer.. poyo2 le pndang depan..

'nice view' ktenye... =)

gmbar pura2..

penat... huhu... tumpang landing jap...

hehehe.. ni nk tayang contact lens sbnrnye... cntik x???

lastly nk say thanks kat org2 yg bwk sy jln2.. bestnye... nnt bwk sy jln2 lg yer... hehehe... :)

huwaaa... xske nye pms...

tau x pms tu ape??? PMS tu pre menstrual syndrome.. 
mksdnye pempuan ni.. tiap kali nk period ade beberapa symptom yg die ade.. 
slalunye xde pun... 
adoi... kali ni punye pms aku terlampau la cepat terasa.. npe la???
sensitif bebenor plak.. bende yg kecik pun aku ley nangish2...
maaflah yer.. nasib baik aku x maki spe2.. masih boleh control lg...
cpat2 la perasaan ni pegi.. p main jauh2... xske la...
nnt buat org2 yg aku syg pun terasa jugak... 
nk hepi2 je....
xmo cdey2...=(

FaLL in lOvE

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku.. telah datang seorang insan yang mengetuk pintu hati ini..

Ya Allah jika aku jatuh cinta, cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu, agar betambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaimu..

Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh hati, izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padaMu, agar aku tidak terjatuh ke dalam jurang cinta nafsu..

Ya Rabbana, jika aku jatuh hati, jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling daripada hatiMu..

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku memohon cinta-Mu dan cinta orang yg mencintai-Mu serta cinta yg dapat mendekatkan aku kepada cinta-Mu.

Ya Allah, apa saja yg Engkau anugerahkan kepadaku daripada apa yang aku cintai, maka jadikan ia kekuatan untukku mencintai apa yg Engkau cintai. Dan apa saja yg Engkau singkirkan daripada apa yg aku cintai, maka jadikan ia keredaan untukku dalam mencintai apa yang Engkau cintai.

Ya Allah, jadikan cinta-Mu sesuatu yang paling kucintai daripada cintaku kepada keluargaku, hartaku dan air sejuk pada saat kehausan....

Ya Allah, jadikan aku mencintai-Mu, mencintai malaikat-Mu, rasul-Mu dan hamba-Mu yang soleh.

Ya Allah, hidupkanlah hatiku dengan cinta-Mu dan jadikanlah aku bagi-Mu seperti apa yg Engkau cintai.

Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku mencintai-Mu dengan segenap cintaku dan seluruh usahaku demi keredhoan-Mu.. Sekiranya dia adalah jodoh yang terbaik, yang engkau telah tetapkan buatku sejak dari kandungan ibuku lagi maka permudahkanlah urusanku, permudahkanlah urusan dia, permudahkanlah urusan kami berdua..

Ya Allah Ya Rahman, Ya Allah Ya Rahim.. lindungilah imanku, lindungilah iman dia Ya Allah dan lindngilah iman kami berdua sepanjang perhubungan ini..

Ya Allah…Bila Hamba menjadi pasangan seseorangIzinkanlah diri hamba menjadi pelindung baginya.. Izinkanlah diri hamba menjadi penyejuk hati baginya.. Izinkanlah wajah hamba menjadi kesenangan baginyaIzinkanlah mata hamba menjadi keteduhan baginya.. Izinkanlah setiap perkataan hamba menjadi kesejukan baginya

Ya Allah…Izinkanlah setiap pelukan menjadi jalan untuk lebih mendekat kepadaMu.. Izinkanlah setiap sentuhan menjadi perekat cinta kepadaMu.. Izinkanlah setiap pertemuan menjadikan kami bersyukur kepadaMu

Ya Allah…Izinkanlah hati yang sangat halus ini tidak pernah merasa tersakiti.. Izinkanlah hati yang rentan ini tidak pernah merasa terkhianati

Ya Allah…Jiwa kami ada dalam genggamanMu.. maka izinkanlah jiwa kami selalu bertaut dalam cintaMu

Ya Allah… Permintaan terakhirku, semoga kami berdua selalu berada dalam perlindunganMu.Ya Allah..