fight the bad feelings

i miss someone so badly right now... it makes me think worse thing will happen... which is not good right? let's hear this song and get rid of all the bad feelings..

how was it??? better?? i really miss him... =( at one point i even miss him more than i miss myself... :P

footnote: hopefully thing will works out for both of us... Dear Allah... i really love him... if we are meant to be together, please make the path ease for both of us..

Belum Masaku..

siapa yang dalam dunia ni tidak mahu disayangi..  jawapannya.. sifar... memang benar jodoh pertemuan itu ditangan yang maha kuasa.. bila is lihat diri is pada masa lalu is sedar is buang masa menanti suatu yang tak pasti... dugaan yang is perlu lalui hanya untuk menurut kehendak hati.. is xmampu melihat air mata mereka tumpah atas kedegilan is.. tapi is juga tak pasti jika is mampu terima insan lain di hati is.. jalan masa hadapan yang is pandang sukar... setiap hari is berdoa supaya semoga segalanya dipermudahkan... supaya is boleh buat keputusan yang memuaskan semua pihak..

kawanku.. jika kau mahu lihat aku bahagia seperti dirimu.. doakanlah jodoh aku dengannya mudah... benar.. aku sangat berahsia denganmu.. maafkan aku... jika dia memang jodoh aku, kau pasti akan tahu kebenaran mengapa aku jarang bercerita tentang dirinya.. cuma yang pasti.. aku hanya mampu berkata belum tiba masaku untuk itu..

notakaki: baru balik dari oncall.. dapat berita baik dari kawan.. tetiba rasa tersentuh pula hati... aku bahagia untuknya tapi dalam masa yang sama air mata tumpah bila fikirkan masa depan sendiri...

Best sangat ke jadi doctor?

hai... lama is tak conteng kat blog ni... ada je masa sebenarnya... tapi kadang bila balik kerja tu dah penat sangat.. malas betul nak mengarang dalam blog... sejak berkerjaya ni... is kurang masa dengan keluarga.. kurang masa dengan kawan-kawan kecuali kawan kerja.. kurang masa dengan kekasih.. susah nak penuhi jemputan kahwin kawan-kawan.. kadang-kadang berdepan pula dengan difficult patient, superior yang suka marah-marah.. stress bebenor la... huhu... T__T
tapi is perlu juga masa untuk diri sendiri kan... bila is keluar dengan dia, is akan lupa is seorang doktor... is tak perlu buat keputusan mana satu yang terbaik untuk jadikan pesakit sihat, tak ada suara yang nak marah kalau is buat salah... hari tu kami jalan-jalan di telok cempedak... the day before kami jalan-jalan cari makan... walaupun masa tu baru lepas oncall.. mengantuk pun is layan je... sebab bukan selalu dapat jumpa orang yang sayang kita kan??

maaf... is dah jarang cerita hal peribadi dalam blog.. tapi hari ni lupakan sekejap boleh... hehe...


notakaki: i really miss his smile... but i miss mine more... please make me smile again will you??

The one that got away

Summer after high school, when we first met
We'd make out in your Mustang to Radio head
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos


Grabbed a bunch of blankets
And climbed to the roof
We'd talk about our future like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I'd be loosing you
And in another life,
I would be your girl
We'd keep for our promises
Be us against the world


And in other life,
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away


I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other 
We made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you,
I put those records on


Someone said you had your tattoo removed
I saw you downtown singing the blues
Its time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse


And in another life
You would be my girl
We'd keep full our promises
Be us against the world


And in another life,
I would make you stay

So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
the one that got away

The one (X3)
that got away


All this money can't buy me a time machine (Noo)
Can't replace you with a million rings (Noo)
Shoulda told you what you meant to me (Whoa)
Cause now I pay the price


And in another life,
I would be your girl (You would be my girl)
We'd keep for our promises
Be us against the world


And in another life,
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The one (away)
The one
The one
The one that got away

sadness and joy..

It felt like it happened yesterday... my cheeks were still wet of tears.. my heart were still hurt too much, it felt that i'm about to crash.. earlier they said.. time will pass by and sooner or later you won't think about it anymore.. but why until this time do i have such feeling? 

Sometimes, somewhere I kept thinking.. Will my life have a happy ending likes in fairy tales.. does '.. and they live happily ever after..' do exist?? it's not jealousy watching other people smiles when i'm not.. and neither mad when others have found what they want when i'm still searching for one..

am i too greed? or maybe it's about time that i should make a move and never look back on my past.. maybe i should let go one that love for everyone happiness.. 

footnotes: the walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy